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I’m a huge fan of clutches and purses lately. Somehow I noticed that my large commuter bag causes unsightly wrinkles on my shirt shoulders, and I don’t like it. /nitpicks Which is why for quick errand runs and such, I opt to carry my envelope clutch instead.

Kate Spade

Kate Spade Book Clutches

I was searching for nice clutch styles when I stumbled upon the book clutch again. I first encountered this trend about a year ago when Kate Spade and Chanel came up with a couple of books. I didn’t quite like the idea. And so I prayed to the fashion gods to please not make this catch on.

But it did. There is no (fashion) god.

Natalie Portman Book Clutch

Natalie Portman with a Book Clutch of Nabokov’s Lolita by Kate Spade

I think it’s part of the whole geeky hipster movement. People now want to appear smarter, people want to flaunt their geeky interests, which is why wearing official merchandise is not enough. It had to come to this.

Michelle Williams Book Clutch

Michelle Williams with a Catcher in the Rye Book Clutch (Left) and some book cover I don’t recognize (right). Both by Olympia Le-Tan

I don’t give a hoot if you have it on your iPad or if you’ve read it a million times before. It makes you look like a real wannabe when you carry something that looks like a book, only to open it and take out your powder compact. For the love of literature, you poseurs. Carry a real book! If you want to brag about the titles you’ve read, at least grab the real thing.

Chanel

At least Chanel’s version is plain and classic enough to not pronounce any random title. Maybe I can live with this one. I actually kinda like this one., now that I think of it

For this particular trend though, I actually would rather that people go designer instead of DIY. Wanna know why? See the photos below:

Book clutch ruined book 2

Book clutch ruined

ruined book clutch

 DIY Book Clutch instructions from runwaydiy.com. Yup, they’re the one to blame.

My heart breaks. Those are perfectly good books. And don’t give me the excuse that you have e-book copies anyway. Hardbound books are super expensive. I’d kill to have a collection. If you don’t want them anymore why don’t you just donate them? I’m sure  a lot of people would love to read those books.

Plus think of all the trees! All that paper gone to waste. I don’t want to sound like a goody-goody. But seriously, there is something wrong when people destroy their books to turn them into bags that barely hold anything. Destroying books != upcycling. Any fashion idiot who claims other wise is, well, an idiot. Upcycling means turning trash/waste products into something of higher value than the original. It’s not upcycle since those books aren’t exactly trash before you trashed them.

BRB Mourning for all the pretty hardbound books ruined for the sake of vanity. I really hope this doesn’t get any more popular. I’d take other ugly trends instead, at least those are unpretentious and don’t destroy things that still work.

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I just have to let this out or else I’ll go crazy. Warning: Lots of feelings coming through. Prepare for some incoherence and oversharing block of text.

As much as I hate to admit it, I’m the type of person who is driven by envy. In fact. I used to be the kind of person who would feel bad when someone else succeeds. Like when an acquaintance gets the job or recognition I always wanted, or when someone who’s endeavors I deemed insignificant actually gets away with it, I feel bad.

 cereal guy

Yeah, just like this.

At that point, it was not even whether I was successful or not. What was wrong was that the foundation of my self-esteem was based on perceived success. In short, I kept on comparing myself with other people, and used that for validation. I was validated when I thought myself as better off than others, and was invalidated when others was more successful than me.

I had a lot of excuses for that. I blamed them for being luckier. For being born rich. For being social climbers just to get ahead via social capital. I blamed my circumstances in life. I questioned the preferences of other people. I would boldly exclaim that society is collectively degenerating in tastes, which is why with the right marketing, mediocrity can prevail. I said and thought everything just to make myself feel better, convincing myself and those who are around me that certain successes weren’t all that. I was on this long and futile mission to “improve” the tastes of those around me just so my insecurities regarding my lack of achievements and success would be resolved.

I had so many frustrations and excuses back then that I realized, perhaps one of the reasons I’m not successful is because I waste too much time making excuses and invalidating other people’s success instead of focusing on working towards my own. In short, it wasn’t really any of what I’ve been lamenting about. It was that I let insecurity get the best of me.

The one thing I learned the hard way, something about growing up that I cherish, is to be happy for others. At one point, I realized that for as long as their success does not get in the way of mine, there really is no point in getting upset over it. If I think they suck, and yet they succeed, be it via having the right connections, opportunities or they just got lucky, well good for them. That doesn’t mean I can’t get successful too. (Also, that doesn’t mean I would stop thinking that they suck.  Suck-cess LOL. I’m happy for you, but I still don’t think you’re good.)

Who are we to say whose success is undeserved? It’s their life and their own efforts. If I know I’m better, or could be better, then I’ll just do what I have to do. It has nothing to do with whether they deserve it or not.

One thing I uphold though, now and even then, is what I call “righteous success”. If I am going to be successful, I want it to happen because of my own merits. I want to be rewarded and/or recognized by the virtue of my work or my qualifications. Without stepping on other people, without selling out. If other people achieve success through other means, that is fine. Nothing wrong with getting lucky. But as for me, I do not think I will be satisfied if I achieved success that way. I want to be able to say “I earned it, and I deserve it”.

By now, I have recognized that I may or may not achieve success in this lifetime. Especially with the kind of success that I want. But still, that will not stop me from trying. At the end of the day, I will be happy knowing that I did what I was supposed to do. Even though I am keen on believing that life as no purpose, that will not stop me from making what I want from it. Hopefully, my time to succeed will come. If not, well then I have at least lived a life with no regrets.

The wings that will take us places, are somewhere along this road, still sleeping, gently enveloping our future.V6, In The Wind

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Year in, year out. It never fails. Someone in your social circle will complain about MMFF. Water is also clear, PNoy is bald, and the sky is also blue. Nothing new there.

I rarely watch movies at cinemas. Not because I think I’m too good for mainstream movies but mostly because I’m a hikikomori with a ridiculously small circle of friends more often than not I don’t have anyone to go with and I don’t want to look like a loser stuffing my face with overpriced non-crunchy popcorn. That doesn’t mean I don’t like movies. I watch films whenever there’s a screening in UPLB, and I uh… torrent most of my other stuff. I enjoy watching movies, even if just to entertain myself. Sometimes to make myself think.

As filmmaker Pepe Diokno pointed out, mainstream films are not about artistry or quality. So all you feelingero film-critic wannabes could quit whining about the stuff you don’t care about and go watch your almost-porn old indie film DVDs now. Mainstream films are all about making money and entertaining people. That doesn’t mean it can’t be creative or thought-provoking, but that’s not what they aim for. It’s the same even in Hollywood or in other countries. Payabangan lang sa production most of the time. Let’s not whine about the movies achieving anything other than entertainment. That’s not what it’s for. If you want movies that make you think, then don’t watch Tarantino. Don’t watch The Expendables. Just watch One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest over and over (I’ve seen it and yes  it makes you go crazy think. It’s also damn boring at points)I could go on and on but point is, a lot of mainstream films are just entertainment so that point is basically moot.

The problem with Filipino films is that they try to create a film in such a short span of time, rushing things, cutting corners. This all makes it half-assed. It’s the same thing about our dramas/telenovelas. Why do we insist on airing daily dramas while dramas from other Asian countries like Taiwan, Japan and Korea air weekly? (Sometimes they have daily dramas, but it’s not as ambitious as weekly ones and well, most of the time the daily ones are rather crap too). That’s why the script is so uninspired and the production looks so cheap! They don’t have time to get it right.

But then again, these mainstream film outfits don’t exactly have the motivation to do better. They’ll just end up spending more if they try for quality when clearly, bashing aside, their crap films earn enough. It might surprise you to know this, but MMFF actually has a script-screening process. So why do the crappy stories still get in? May politika na yan siyempre! There are only so many film outfits in the Philippines. Like with almost any industry in this country, it’s an oligopoly. They’re the big ones. Of course they’re gonna get in no matter what they deliver. What’s important is that we pressure these companies to do well. They’re the ones with the budget and the equipment, how come they’re producing crappy films? Crappier even, compared to indies. No reason to do better? Well, we better give them a reason.

I don’t want to be just another ranter. Yes, yes, yes, we know the multiple sequel films suck. It’s been said over and over by everyone every year. But they don’t stop making that crap. Don’t you ever wonder why? More importantly, do you think there’s a way to get them to do better? It’s not much, but I have a couple of grandiose ideas (thinking is fun when you’re not going to ship the ideas yourself hehehe)

 

My ambitious suggestions for the next Metro Manila Film Festivals.

Make it an International Film Festival.

It’s simple. Aside from the usual, Metro Manila invites foreign filmmakers to screen their stuff in the Philippines. The films should be little-known films with good reputations. The types that were highly anticipated and acclaimed but couldn’t/didn’t get wide distribution. Like those straight-to-DVD ones. They exist.

Or we could show a couple of films where Filipinos are involved in the production. We always see them on TV, don’t we? So-and-so proudly Pinoy person does a bit part/makeup/costume/ whatever in a Hollywood movie, Pixar movie or something. Get it, then show it to us. Make people realize that if they can do something there but not here, then the problem is not with them, it’s here.

Also, these should be distributed less compared to the other Filipino films. That way they can’t say that the festival loses it’s purpose of showing Filipino-made films.

Give the foreign films their own recognition. Some special award, culture award, relevance or whatever award.

  1. More diversity. I’m sure filmmakers from other countries would have something to offer other than Enteng, Ina, Mano, Panday, etc. series. If we don’t like what the mainstream outfits are offering, at least we’ll have a choice.
  2. Competition. Surely, Filipino filmmakers, while not directly competing with foreign films for awards, will have at least some reason to kick some things up a notch. If there’s anything about pinoy pride, ayaw mapahiya ng pinoy. They will definitely step up their game once they realize they would pale in comparison otherwise.
  3. Boost tourism? Not that malls are any tourist attraction but at least the cinemas are still a bit cheaper compared to first world countries.

I’m not even sure if these ideas are doable. I’m not a filmmaker, events producer or whatever. I’m just a blogger with a lot of feelings. I don’t even know squat about what’s involved in a real international film festival. I’m talking out of my ass here. But at least I took into thinking what I observed and what I know. At least I’m thinking.

Crappy films make me think — of how it things could be done better. If it doesn’t make you think, maybe it’s because you’re the type who would rather complain instead. Maybe you just don’t want to think in the first place.

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Justice

I was deeply shocked and saddened when I heard what happened to Given Grace Cebanico. Heartbreaking. Just. At a loss for words.

How do you possibly explain such horrible things?

I was supposed to be on a social network exile this week (getting too addicted) so I wasn’t aware of things. I had to enable my Facebook account to check up on my friends and media contacts who are following her beat. So many rumors. So many questions. I just can’t.

Now, perhaps because I’m not good with feeling fear as an emotion, I feel rage. These things don’t just happen in Elbi. This is MY Elbi. I’ve lived in this town all my life and I’ve always felt safe. I’m not about to let some assholes ruin that. Not this Town, it does not happen here. They won’t get away with it. Ooooh I’m so pissed! And I’m not buying that robbery angle (although I did consider the possibility, still, no way).

I’m watching this case ’til verdict time. I want the perpetrators dead. Screw amnesty.

Justice should be served fast.

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… but didn’t. Aka the August recap post.

I have been practicing patience and restraint. Those are two virtues I seem to lack and I’m trying to learn them so I won’t get in trouble.

I still have a lot of feelings, but I had no energy to post. I went through this whole anhedonic-acedic phase a couple of weeks ago, and while I had some things to say I tried to restrain myself from the usual ranting, and it just felt too troublesome to do. I didn’t derive any pleasure from it.

Well, now that I’m more or less back in equilibrium I’m gonna talk about what I could’ve said…

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